I'm hot and sweaty and I am bored. At work I am cold and tired and bored.

Ask me anything you want to ask me here. Even anonymously. GO! GO! GO!

I'm so glad to be home. I'm ordering myself pizza for comfort food.

So I am home. I don't know what to do. Play FFXII or draw. The drawing I am working on is soooo adorable. I just hope it stays adorable all the way until the end. But FFXII. Calling me. Ha ha ha.

Hmmm.

And tomorrow I have to go to work at 7:00am. I'll explain that later.

I has a plan!

Thanks for voting in my poll, guys. And if you didn't well. . .boo. So I think I will try to crank out the next two in the High-Heels series. ( There are four more ) The next two are kind of short so I think I can draw them both out. That has Lockon, Sumeragi, Tieria, and Christina in it. ♥

Then I will work on my "Discovering Yaoi" one which, apparently, is two parts. Some of the themes were kind of general, but not really that one. I was looking through my scripts and didn't realize until after the poll that that one has two parts. Second part isn't really yaoi-related. And of course, that one involves Graham and Billy. ♥

Man. I wish I had more time in the week to draw.

New LJ layout. *lulz* No link because, really. Same picture for the header. Except less bells and whistles. So you don't need to rush over to see it.

While I liked my last one, it sucked when I would go into "archive" view. Didn't show the name of the months and some other little things. Made it difficult to use and I never realized how much I used that until I lost it.

Another fun thing I like about this one, if someone posts an image too wide for my layout ( like my own motivational poster from a few days ago. ), it only pushes out my "I'm totally Graham Aker" box, which still looks fine. :3

Poking through my "layouts" folder, I saw my Edgeworth one. Part of me was like "Aww, I miss you." *Sniffles*

And yes, I fail. I still haven't finished my chibi comic. I'm sorry. *Cries*

And yes! This entry is pointless. Only writing it because I don't want to get ready for work.

I just want to be able to sleep 7 hours straight without waking up due to pain again. I'm so sleepy right now. Argh.

I guess while I am having issues with pain, I should go to bed earlier than normal in hopes I get a regular amount of sleep.

Yesterday and today I woke up at 3:00am in pain. Yesterday it was again at 4 and then at 5 before finally 6. Today it was again at 5 until finally at 6. So I am really sleepy right now. Blargh.

Today just really sucked. It wasn't an awful day, it's just the suckyness was slow and painful and dragged on.

I tried drawing ( doodle_bar ) and it isn't helping. I know what I want to do, but I can't unless I am a selfish bitch. And I really do want to be selfish right now, I just don't want to be a bitch at the same time.

So instead, I am sitting here. . .feeling more grumpy. And it is no one's fault, but I am sorry. Right now I am in such a bad mood, I'm tired of hearing about what other people are doing, and I just want to go "You know what, I don't care. Pay attention to my needs right now."

I know. Selfish. Selfish. Selfish of me.

But. Fuck it. It's how I feel right now.

Going to Seattle and Ellensburg this weekend. Actually, I am already in Ellensburg, ha ha ha. Surprise! So I won't be around really this weekend until Sunday evening. Right now Chee is sleeping and I am using her computer.

Silly college students thinking 7:30am is "early". ( Damn, I miss those days where I thought that too. )

Speaking of computers, John fixed Sigma. Gave him a new HD and from the sound of it, is working like new. I'm excited. ( Windows XP!!! ) Means my scanner will work again. ♥ I just have no idea where to put him. I mean, Axl has taken over my drawing table. I could put him on my kitchen table maybe? Or try to fit two computers on my computer desk since I have the ledge behind it where Sigma was sitting originally.

Or I could move Bring somewhere. Maybe Bring can go be on my art table, Axl can be a lappy top and move wherever and Sigma gets his old place back.

The kicker is I don't think Bring has wireless capabilities, so if I moved him to my bedroom, he would be netless.

I commissioned someone to crochet me a doll of Graham. She says she is about halfway done, so I am super excited. ♥ There will be pics. Many of them.

Today has been kind of suck. I am really easily irritated right now. I blame mother nature for that. But, I am not getting irritated over nothing. People. Argh. Some people are just so incredibly frustrating.

Why the fuck are some people so lazy when using the internet? Is it REALLY that difficult to use a drop down menu. Really? DROP DOWN MENUS ARE EVERYWHERE! THEY ARE IN YOUR WORD PROCESSOR. GOD.

I bought something on ebay this morning that I, ah, probably shouldn't have? Ha ha ha. Damnit. I had been watching it for the last 22 days. Today was the last day and no one bought it so I did. I'm not saying what it is until I get it.

My ficlet is almost a page long which is totally not what I was going for. Hopefully I can finish tonight and hopefully it isn't stupid. I really just mainly like the end to it.

I am really hoping for my birthday I get a scanner. That's what I am asking my parents for. God, I miss not having one. DAMN YOU WINDOWS VISTA.

Also. Serious Business ( Humorous Video about Flame Wars. )

Today was nice being with John. Physically, I am about the same as yesterday. Started off feeling all most better, by the end of the night not so good except because I didn't push myself so hard, it wasn't so bad.

I feel like I have the opposite of morning sickness. It's hitting me at night.

I did get more done on the drawing I am doing for the Gundam 00 art exchange. It's turning out to be really colorful. I don't think I've done something so colorful and bright before and I honestly don't know how it happened.

I can't wait to do a progress picture of it. ♥

Being nice/polite/respectful and performing a job are two very important things to being an employee somewhere. I think it is possible to have one and not the other, but there will be problems. ( And of course, "performing a job" is really vague and covers a lot of things. )

I also think it is possible to have one and not the other and still keep your job, however it depends on the job. A completely rude and disrespectful jerk who is great at filing and knows his way around Microsoft Office probably shouldn't be a receptionist anywhere. Also, I really wouldn't like a super-nice and polite man being my surgeon if he can't tell the difference between a spleen and a stomach.

I use to say "Any monkey can be trained to do my job." and I really see how that isn't true. For whatever reason, my job often times seems and feels so easy and I feel like I could train a monkey to do it.

However, cooking. Cooking should be basic and simple. You can identify the tools necessary, learn how to work a stove, oven, or even a microwave. You have nifty "instructions" ( Recipes ) that explain how to cook right out for you. Even so, I can't cook too well. Something just isn't there in my understanding of it that no matter how hard I try, how often I do it, how well you explain it. . .I mess it up a lot unless it is something extremely basic, simple, or easy. Bland, burnt, water down, simply bad taste, undercooked. . .whatever. I've done it and it should be so easy!

Of course.

Take note that I am not trying to work at a restaurant as a line cook.

I got frames! Huzzah! And I framed things! One problem. . .

I DON'T HAVE ANY ROOM! *Sulk* I put up TWO new pictures and was left scratching my head as I have four more plus my sign to hang. Argh. So guess what I am doing tomorrow? Taking everything down and rehanging it to better organize it.

On a completely different note. I'm sleepy. Some cool peeps from Tri-Cities came up as they are doing Bloomsday tomorrow. So we went out to dinner and drinks tonight together. It was nice seeing them.

And now I am hella tired. And think they are crazy for going to one more bar after I went home. THEY are jogging/walking 12k miles tomorrow starting at 9:15am. I can sleep in as long as I want to. Har Har. Crazy.

Just a quick update of random happy things after yesterday's ick.

Did laundry last night and finished before 11pm. It was amazing. I'm happy. And all my towels are clean. Sort of. I've discovered the towels I used in place of a drying rack is pretty stained. Oh well.

I look pretty hot today, not to sound prideful. Today is definitely a high self-esteem day except for my hair. My hair is having a bad day in the back and I tried many things to fix it with little success.

My cat locked herself in my bedroom not once, but twice today. Everytime, she freaks out and howels. I question her sanity.

My mother is giving me $50 towards my ipod Touch I want. Which I will either get this weekend or next. Depends on my finances as technically I get paid next Tuesday, but of course my rent is due tomorrow. So we will see. I went to the bank the other day and saw I was fine, but I think some deductions hadn't gone through yet. There was a time when I was happy to have $100 in the bank. Now I try to keep it well over that. What's nice is that the $50 was offered before she heard about my craptastic day yesterday. Anyone got any cool apps they would recommend? My one worry about getting a Touch is that a week later they will announce a Gen 3 with a built in camera. I would be so pissed. I need to figure out what to name it! I have two ideas.

My trip to Alaska is coming up fast. Oh em gee. I'm so nervous. Yes. Still slightly going "Big boat. Water. Aaaaaah." I'm guessing I am going to have a lot of free time while on the cruise part, especially since I am only wanting to do one land excursion thing. So, what to do?

This Sunday is an event called Bloomsday for Spokane. I had heard about it living in Tri-Cities, but didn't think it was a big deal. I mean. This is Spokane. Not Seattle or say New York. Well. Over 50,000 people show up to run, job, or walk 12k around the city. Um. Yeah. Kind of a big deal apparently. Guess where I live in reference to the race? Apparently I live on the starting line. The back of the starting line ( very back ), but the starting line none the less. I'll take pictures!

Working on a chibi comic and I have drawn myself in a corner. I never really had an idea on how to actually end it.

And I still don't.

a;hfj;kjher.

I think I traumatized one of the chibis so much that he doesn't know how to get out of the situation I've put him in. I broke him. My bad.

I don't like driving my mother's car. Let's face it. I get anxious freaking out thinking it will die when I am on a busy street somewhere.

Again.

So I am feeling annoyed since some errands I need to do this weekend requires driving. Part of me is like "Well, I can walk." and I really could, but carrying back things I need to buy? Argh. In Seattle I had a backpack because, duh, I was in college. I've since gotten rid of those and have messenger bags. Argh.

I need a new hair straightener/curler. Which I am sure I could find at Rite Aid. But I need turkey soon. And catfood. I really just need to go grocery shopping. It sucks. So I have to drive. Blargh. I don't want to.

I need a car. GUH! RESPONSIBILITY. WHY?! HATE. WHY DID MY CAR HAVE TO DIE IN DECEMBER?!?! I miss you, Libra. ;~; Damn Fords.

I think I will go to Rite Aid first. See if they have a good straightener/curler and new headphones. ( Mine are dying. ) If not, I will go to Fred Meyer. If they do, I can go to Safeway which is closer huzzah. Then I want to walk to Value Village and see about new clothes. Yay. And see if Value Village has a good backpack lol. Damn. Maybe I should just go to Fred Meyer.

I'm asking FList first before. Does anyone on mah LJ have a picture of Joshua's insignia? The little skull with the axe in it? I could have sworn I had one, but I think it is hiding from me. ( My Gundam pics have gotten all out of wack and messed up with Sigma dying. )

I can get a screencap, bu-ut I am hoping for something better. ( Tiny pic is tiny. ) I feel like I remember seeing some reference picture of him where it was shown there. Or one that showed Stewart's and Randy's too. I need it for reference in making my sign. THANKS I LOVE YOU ALL.

AND I KNOW I'VE SEEN RANDY AND STEWART'S BEFORE! And you can't see one of theirs in the show at all. So a pic MUST exist.

And yes I did try googling. My Howard/Joshua picture came up. lolwhut?

On a side note, I felt like doodling and did a doodle of Phen. God, I love that guy. I realize though that if my OCs had a fandom, Phen would be the "Trap" character people would whine about. To be honest, I have no idea if he has bits. I guess it doesn't matter. But I want to look under his skirt and he won't let me. He's probably the closest I have to a genderless character out of that ban of OCs.

Phen is an enigma~

Phen @ doodle_bar

I have sooo much I need to accomplish this weekend. Got paid today and plan on spending a lot this weekend. A list of things I need to find this weekend so I don't forget: ( Shopping List )

What sucks about kitty litter is it needs to be flushable. And because Spokane has a "WE ALL MUST GO GREEN!" mayor, you can only find one or two brands of flushable litter and you can only find them at pet stores. ( I miss the days where I could walk into a safeway and buy flushable litter. )

So, pet store is one thing. Obviously all my fabric and sewing stuff comes from a fabric store of some sort. The rest of the stuff ( with the exception of white slacks and a white collared shirt. ) I should have no problem finding at Fred Meyer. I love Fred Meyer. It just sucks because when I have to make a bunch of store runs, I don't want to go to Thor Meyer, which means I gotta go to the sucky Fred Meyer up north. I am worried about white slacks as that is a bit different. Ha ha. May require a stop to Burlington since they have some weird things. If after my rounds I don't find a pair of white slacks, I have two options left. Value Village and there is a Black and White clothing store at RPS downtown.

A lot of driving around to do. So, I am thinking stores in this order: Mall, Burlington Coat Factory, Plato's Closet, Fred Meyer, PetCo, Michael's, Hancock Fabricks, and JoAnne's ( If Hancock can't help me. ). That will be the drive. If I am still lacking items, there is Value Village, Black and White, and a downtown athletic store to pop in to.

And that's not all.

I have this shopping to do, but I also want to finish my comic this weekend, I need to talk from work to my doctor's to figure out how long it will take me, and I would like to get started on cleaning up my mother's car. I'm borrowing her car still, which wasn't the most clean car when I got it. Since I have had it. . .it has gotten worse and while SakuraCon is still 20 some days away. . .I rather not try to rush in cleaning it the day before. I need to clean out all the garbage, empty the trunk and all that jazz. When it gets closer I will focus on washing some of the inside. I was hoping to rent a car for SakuraCon, but I haven't been able to get approved for a credit card. I'm picky and the one I wanted didn't approve me. Also. My bank is one of the banks that folded. They are in the process of changing so I can't get a credit card from them right now.

And I am too young to rent a car. :/ Fail.

Art - I'm up to 50 comic ideas again. Argh. You know. Maybe when I do go to Alaska I should bring my laptop. I could work on comics. *lol*

The one I am working on, god. I wish it would just ink itself. I already know what my artist comment will be on deviantArt and I want to shout it out loud and proud. But it wouldn't make any sense if the comic isn't with it.

I still neeeeed to do another high-heels comic for con aaaannndddd get a bunch of prints done.

Counseling - Set up an appointment for Monday at 11. Not nervous except for the fact that the reason I am going feels weird. It's not a "I hate my life" "I hate my family" or "I hate college homework." like all the times before.

Cosplay And Work - Lord. So I told a small handful of people about cosplay stuff. Small handful. Tee-vee people are all gossips. We love gossip I have found. Usually I am good at knowing who will or won't spread gossip around.

Unfortunately not the case this time as our News Director found out and I suspect he will be the type to mention "Did you know that Meagan. . ." to everyone in News. Awesome. Basically it went like this:

News Director: Have you always had that bar in your ear?
Me: Yup!
ND: Wow. I've never noticed. Look at you. Some kind of hipster with your twittering and facebook.
Sports Web: *Under his breath* And dressing up.
ND: Wait, what?!

And then went the long string of questions like who I dress up as, where, and yeah. Sports Web guy was amused and made the comment, "I shouldn't have said anything." I was struggling with how to explain any of it to people who know nothing about anime. It amused me that he asked if I went to ComiCon. I guess as a News Director, he would know that Spokane has one. Made me wonder if he knows that Spokane also has a Furry Convention. Eheheheh. I don't think most people know that. Yes we don't have an Anime Convention. Whut?

Speaking of cosplay, I have a lot of work to do this weekend! Going to find better fitting white pants, fabric for the hat, wrist bands, new hair ties, hair product, pin back, and yeah. My gloves for my Union outfit came in yesterday. I got two pair and for some weird random thing. . .the left gloves are missing a snap. :/ I think I am just going to try and add them myself. Speaking of notions, I need buttons too. ( SakuraCon is so close and I have so much to do! )

Complain - I have dishes to do and I don't want to do them.

Finally watched Gundam 00 episode 22. I figured I should watch it before tomorrow. Mixed feelings, mixed feelings.

Mixed feelings.

Edit: Ebay finally got back the wig I tried to buy for Joshua cosplay. EFF YES. PURCHASED. I've checked everyday just about for it to return, so I hope I don't get another "Oops, it is actually out of stock." message as it hasn't been on ebay since then until now. RAWR. TOO MUCH COSPLAY PLANNED FOR SAKURACON. AAAHHH.

It was in college. Portfolio day. I was one of the lucky people who got to be in one of the corner rooms with only three other people. It was awesome.

Portfolio day is a pretty big deal in that businesses, employers, and other students can come around and see your. . .portfolio. This one younger man came up to me and started chatting with me. I thought he was another student either in another major or new as I hadn't seen him before.

Portfolio ended and I saw one of my friends/classmates talking to this younger man off to the side. The young man left the room and my friend comes walking over. There was a small group of us chatting and my friend proudly states,

"Dude, my brother thought you were a hot chick with good posture. He was too shy to tell you."

Everyone ( because they are all guys. ) made a face and started talking about what a weird compliment that was. "Why would anyone say something like that?" "Good posture? That's a weird thing to say." "Was he trying to mean something by that?"

I stood there thinking about it for a moment, smiled and said, "I like it. I'll remember him for that."

They all kind of stopped and got these thoughtful looks of, "Maybe I should try that sometime. . ."

The other best compliment I have ever received was when a few people saw my artwork and promptly asked in all seriousness, "Is this who your parents named you after? This artist?"

Because I guess some video people go into video because they can't draw or something. Except me.