Ellensburg was good. Made it there and back all right. No snow. Weather was fine. It was great to see needed friends again, especially since it had been a while. Been so long because nothing was timing out right. Illnesses, family emergencies, vacations, moving, midterms. . .yikes.

Started playing Apollo Justice. I was dubious about this game. For many different reasons. And so far I am really liking it all. And of course the first person I have to attach myself to is Kristoph. WHY, GOD, WHY!? WHY!?

I like the new music and the updated graphics when it comes to the backgrounds and such. I'm glad the 3D evidence screen returns in this game. Perceive is interesting, my mind shot to Lie to Me and I think this will be a fun addition. Apollo was annoying me at first, but that's going away. And I do like Phoenix~ ♥

My goal for the week, is to finally unpack my apartment completely. And I need to do laundry tomorrow. Hopefully I can. I'm so confused. My floor has a TON of empty apartments, yet I swear everyday night someone is doing laundry and I know two days a week before I get to work, I hear a family doing laundry. THE HELL!? Am I EVER going to be able to do laundry??? Hopefully Monday evenings can be mine.

I love my shower, by the way. I know I've started taking slower showers because I enjoy it so much.

Work tomorrow, blargh.

Thank you to everyone who left hugs, love, and support for me. Means a lot.

Because of yesterday, didn't really feel much in the ways of drawing last night and I wasn't going to force myself to. So, I am certainly not going to finish my Halloween picture before, ah, Halloween. I put up what I've done so far on my doodle blog. Halloween Sketch @ doodle_bar.

Instead I finished off Trials and Tribulations. Finally. I'm still in denial frustrated about Godot. Thank god Edgeworth doesn't show up in Investigations with a mask and a new lame identity, like two other characters I know. This better not be a trend for me. I'm never putting masks on the faces of my characters, EVER.

I will say that I didn't like Maya waaay in the beginning, but she has grown on me a lot.

After yesterday, it was so very nice to wake up and find this on my FList: Gundam 00 Art Exchange Piccie.

Graham is so awesome.

I'm back from Texas! I'll write more later. Most likely. I'll try. I'll do a quick update of random stuff though right now. Of course, first! Since I haven't been online or checked anything really since Thursday. . .if there is something you want me to see or know about, comment on this entry and let me know. Leave links to LJ entries of yours or whatever. I'll screen comments in case there is something you don't want public.

I saw someone changed their MSN name, for example. Or you can email me. Anyway. . .

Texas was interesting. ( Big Tangent Paragraph about Feeling Lost )

Come back to work and I have stuff to do. Nothing pilling up though. So, that's good. Half the Sales department is out sick, though. ( I sit in Sales, FYI. ) One of the AEs has a confirmed case of Swine Flu. . .I wasn't worried about Swine Flu, but I knew if it showed up at work it would have me a little concerned. I'm still getting over a cold, I really don't want to catch the Flu.

While on vacation, I played a lot of Phoenix Wright. Almost done with Trials and Tribulations. Then I just have Apollo Justice left. Trying to finish these games by the end of the year so I can get and play AA Investigations when it comes out. I'm so excited! T&T has given me mixed feelings. I don't like Godot at all, but then when playing as Mia and seeing Mr. Amando. . .Mr. Amando is great. I like him. And yeah, I'm not blind. I knew there had to be some connection between Godot and Mr. Amardo. . .and now that I am on the last case and finding out more about Godot I just have to ask "WWWHYYY!?" Also, funfact. I RPed as Mr. Armando once. Before I knew who he was. It was crack, and random, and oh god, did I fail now that I look back HA HA.

But all the playing ( and getting to play as Edgeworth for a bit in T&T ) of Phoenix Wright, makes me want a Miles Edgeworth journal again. ( Sorry Graham. ) And I got two Graham metal charms today in the mail today ( Pic ). I am using them as key chains.

And I want a new phone. And hopefully I will have internet in my apartment tomorrow! We will see, however. *Crosses fingers.* I guess this means I should set up Bring. I would like to copy everything off of Bring and put it on Sigma so I can go back to using Windows XP and have two monitors. :3 Not sure what to do with Bring though. . .

Interesting question. I'm not sure if gender or sex of the individual has anything to do with it. But if I had to wager a guess, I would say men.

I think cheating is a sign of weakness and fear on the person. They are obviously unhappy and wanting something in the relationship and scared of being themselves, being open about it, and talking about it. I feel women are more likely to try and change and manipulate their partner when they are unhappy. I could see men more likely to "look somewhere else" if they are unhappy. . .but that's just me applying stereotypes. It's more based on the individual and their thought process as well as what exactly is making them unhappy.

Throwing in if the "know" they won't get caught wouldn't matter. If you're in a happy relationship, you wouldn't need to go somewhere else or cheat on that person. Even if the opportunity arises and the knowledge of not getting caught.

For this reason, I don't exactly believe in the phrase, "Once a cheater, always a cheater." I do think an individual is more likely to cheat again especially on the same person. . .but if they leave that person, I do believe as long as they are honest with themselves and honest with what they want in a relationship, they can find someone they are happy with.

Now regarding marriage, I've been told I am unromantic with my views. Marriage is a wonderful idea, but you really don't need to have one to live "happily ever after" with someone. Makes life easier, of course. But I see it as a legal contract for couples.

I don't believe in Holy Matrimony. At least, not for myself.

What's awesome is I changed my wallpaper last week. :3

Taken from digi148.

• Anyone who looks at this entry has to post this meme and their current wallpaper.
• Explain in no more than five sentences why you're using that wallpaper!
• Don't change your wallpaper before doing this! The point is to see what you had on!

( Screencap! )

I hate vacuuming with a passion. I really only vacuum once a year. But for some reason, this apartment, really needs it more than that. But I hate it. I think part of the reason why I hate it so much is that my vacuum = fail.

It's probably 10 years old. Big heavy upright bagless monster. Broke once. Got it repaired. And I was vacuuming yesterday and I am just like, "Yeah. . .this isn't going to work out anymore."

It was smelling funny after a while, not picking up everything, and just dirty and icky. I stopped before really finishing the living room. So! Going to ( hopefully ) buy a vacuum today after work. Argh. The place I want to go to is WAY THE EFF OUT THERE. I can't believe with the size of Spokane we only have ONE Target. I've been looking at some online and reading reviews. I think I have one picked out.

Seriously though. Vacuuming and folding laundry. Two chores I hate the most. I don't know why folding laundry irritates me so much, but it does.

John made me Chicken Cordon Bleu. I love that meal and was yummy. Haven't had it in forever.

Not looking forward to work tomorrow with recent drama.

Looking forward to a much needed therapy session on Thursday.

Wondering if I will have the guts to pull off my plan on ( hopefully ) Thursday.

Played a ton of FFXII. Navigating the Great Crystal maze sucked. I only looked at the hint book once. . .I somehow managed to do everything else on my own. Yay. Go me. Also, Shemhazai, The Whisperer was such a push-over. I was kind of disappointed.

"Simmer Down" - This irritates me because I use to hear it all the time. It does the opposite for me. I'm not a pot of rice, thank you.

"God has a plan." or "Everything happens for a reason." - Saying it to me to help me feel better. . .no. To me it is a weak excuse and a poor coping mechanism.

"Whatever" - Depending on context, of course. But this is an extremely rude word in some cases.

"You just lost the game." - I've actually never lost it and I don't play by your rules.

"They're ( News Media ) just doing it for ratings." - BIG FAT DUH. Your Eyeballs = Ratings = Money = MY BILLS BEING PAID AND FOOD IN MAH STOMACH.

I have a headache. Argh. A small one. But it like, creeps up on me and I'm like "Eeeeeehhhh." and then it goes away. Then it comes back.

Anyway. Ebay~! I got a notice today from a seller about something I bought from him. He sent it today and should be here between August 12th through the 28th. ( *lol* Yay China. ) Icon is TOTALLY not related. Totally.

Work is going okay. I'm doing work I don't want to do. Blargh. But, such as life.

I really need to clean. I tore up my apartment earlier this week when I was having a "moment". I have dishes that need to be done. I need to set up my old computer which means clean up my computer area. And I need to begin packing!

I meant to do it last night, but I got distracted.

Going to Tri-Cities this weekend for the Hydro Boat Races. Very excited.

There is a drawing I have been working on and I am seriously so close to finishing. I forget how long steps take me.

I sketch like 2 or three times. Ink. Then flat color. Cell shade. Gradient shade. High lights. Detailing. Color lines. Cover up mistakes. Background.

I'm on High Lights right now. Though I did my gradient shading differently, so I might skip that and just work on details.

Aaargh. I wanna do that. And I have ideas for chibi comics. New ideas. Though I have a lot of parts I want to do too. Part 2 to Oblivious Birthday. Part 3 of my High Heels comic. And Part 2 to Not Gay.

Today has been kind of suck. I am really easily irritated right now. I blame mother nature for that. But, I am not getting irritated over nothing. People. Argh. Some people are just so incredibly frustrating.

Why the fuck are some people so lazy when using the internet? Is it REALLY that difficult to use a drop down menu. Really? DROP DOWN MENUS ARE EVERYWHERE! THEY ARE IN YOUR WORD PROCESSOR. GOD.

I bought something on ebay this morning that I, ah, probably shouldn't have? Ha ha ha. Damnit. I had been watching it for the last 22 days. Today was the last day and no one bought it so I did. I'm not saying what it is until I get it.

My ficlet is almost a page long which is totally not what I was going for. Hopefully I can finish tonight and hopefully it isn't stupid. I really just mainly like the end to it.

I am really hoping for my birthday I get a scanner. That's what I am asking my parents for. God, I miss not having one. DAMN YOU WINDOWS VISTA.

Also. Serious Business ( Humorous Video about Flame Wars. )

Two things. First, Fandom Secrets. Lol. OMG. I could comment on so many secrets, and I did comment on some. But there is one in particular that I want to comment on and don't feel comfortable commenting on in the community itself.

CLICK HERE to see the secret itself. Basically it says, "I want to be active in fandom without becoming a BNF. I've been a BNF in the past and I don't want that again and it isn't fun. I feel bad for letting people down and I tend to run from fandom when someone points out that I am developing a presence in it again."

I feel like I am active in fandoms and I want to be noticed MORE. I'm sorry if that sounds horrible or selfish of me, but damnit! I want that. Yeah, I entered the Megaman fandom waaaay too late for that to happen, but I don't need anyone and everyone to be able to utter my name and think of Megaman. I just want my artwork to be noticed! I enjoy my art but I enjoy it more when other people are enjoying it as well.

And I know some people on DA followed me because I drew Megaman and for a little while I felt bad when I moved on to drawing my OCs all the time and now Gundam 00. But interests change and there are fan artists I know and love and I don't feel cheated or anything when they start drawing something else.

And I have dealt with crazy people/fans, but I still want that now. With my Gundam 00 stuff. I can't help it!

So shifting gears, lol. My Birthday is coming up and I wanted to do something for myself. Like, draw a picture or something, but coming up with what has been hard.

I got an idea and then decided I want to write a fanfic. It's an idea I've had for a while. I day dream with the idea of drawing it out, but I don't have the patience of time to finish that. I also hesitate on writing a fanfic in the first place, because the only way I can imagine writing it is a bit, ah, "artistic" you could say and so I don't think many people would like it.

But if I am risking having NO ONE in fandom like it, then what better than to write it for my birthday for myself. I'll still post it, but I will know it was something just for me by me and I won't care what other people think so long as I like it. ( *lol* Wow, this is like the complete opposite of how this entry started. )

Also, thinking about it more in depth I came up with a scene I want to write that would take place after. I don't want to drag out my fanfic so that it will include this one little scene, so I think I will write the scene as a stand alone. Plus, that little scene I can imagine being written in a conventional sense.

Also. More. Teacups.

I feel gross. My nose feels like I've been under water for way too long. I'm sweaty. I'm sticky. I'm tired and exhausted.

I was going to make cookies today, even bought an egg and wax paper. And frosting. FLAG COOKIES. But I am just too ick to move right now. Let alone cook over a hot stove. ( I dunno how many cookies this mix will make ha ha ha. )

Did errands today. I've gone to the store twice today. Once on foot and once by car. Noted when I was leaving the store and going to my car that my muffler is not in the best shape. The whole underside of it is hanging and by the look of it, just going over a speed bump and I will hit it.

My bedroom is now down to a mere 86.9°F. I'm happy I know how to do a ° in html now. I guess I need to research ways to cool an apartment without AC. I have AC, you could say, but it is one of those window units and it is in my living room farthest from the bedroom.

Going to go play Phoenix Wright some more and be a blob right here.

Gobo Godot is still stupid, oh my god. The only thing that has amused me was when he threw the coffee mug at me. Ah ha ha. I laughed so hard. I finally got away from Franziska and her whip only to end up with Gobo Godot and his flying hot coffee. YEAH!

Also, lol. I didn't like Luke Atmey, but the guy has grown on me. I WANT AN ICON OF HIM LAUGHING. ARGH. But Court Records is down right now. Ha ha ha omg. ♥ That guy. THAT GUY. ZVARRI!

Edit: ZVARRI! VICTORY IS MINE!

I feel like I haven't really been writing about me.

So I have been sick. I really thought it was allergies, but it just got progressively worse and now I am on the upswing of things. I just felt extremely weak and tired, had trouble concentrating, my throat was sore, itchy, I would work up a sweat doing the simplest of things, and my face was clammy. Oh, and my nose was runny. So I went home from work the past two days and did a lot of sleeping.

Now I have a cough and still feel somewhat weak, but not as bad as before. I think I can work a full day today, I just might be exhausted by the end of it.

I'm still working on those ten sketches for the prompts I asked for. It did help me out of my drawing slump as I finally was able to produce something decent for the Gundam 00 art exchange I signed up for. I just have to color it and do a background. A freakin' background. Ugh. Oh well. I need practice anyway.

I'm excited to get my teacups, oh my goodness. Also, I commissioned someone to make a doll of Graham. I'M SO EFFING LAME.

What the eff is wrong with me?

I have orange juice.

Argh. The past two nights I haven't slept well. I end up tossing and turning. Yesterday it was about 3:00am that I started it, today 4:30am. I thought maybe yesterday because it was too hot, but last night was fine, so I don't know.

At least I don't wake up with a sore back anymore. But a solid 7 hour sleep would be nice about now.

The night it was hot made me realize that I don't have any pajama shorts anymore. I use to have two specifically for summer, but they are gone now. I don't know what happened to them. ( I guess being in control of AC when I had AC spoiled me? ) I had to sleep in an over sized shirt and last night I had a dream that I was shopping for men's boxers to wear and use. He he he.

I have therapy today. Woo~!

Edit: OMFG THE TEACUPS ARE BACK!!! *BID!BID!BID!*

Edit Edit: VICTORY!

Work is slightly annoying, but since the actual work I am doing is fun, I am surviving. Channel 25 called me today. And yesterday too. They were simple answers.

The work I am doing slows my computer way down. Making a banner that is 8 feet by 3 feet. So in the meantime I am writing down notes on my Original Characters. I'll write a post about that later tonight. :3

Working on a drawing in my free time. Well, a couple. The one I like the most right now I find adorable. But then I realized it seems similar to another drawing of mine. So BLARGH.

I looked up the old drawing and I think if people put them next to each other it wouldn't be "omg it is the same thing." Or like. . .if I was a different person, no one would accuse me of stealing "poses"/ideas from teh Anibunny.

I'm excited to finish it. I dunno how to color it~

FIVE MORE DAYS. Oh my god. It is coming up so fast. Alaskaaaaaaa~

I need to pack and I am slightly worried as I have never had to pack for a trip so long. I need to do dishes and clean my apartment better. I think my apartment is presentable, but since I am having someone coming over now and then to check up on the cat, I want it cleaner. He he he.

I need to do laundry, but I am thinking that will be a Wednesday or Friday adventure.

But yeah, packing. Oh my god. I'm an awesome packer. Not to brag or anything, but I never overpack and seem to pack just right. Actually, people tend to think I under pack so I have a feeling when my parents find me at SeaTac they will be like "That's it?"

I have two bags and a suitcase to choose from. I kind of don't want to bring the suitcase as I feel like I don't need all that room, but lol. Wheels. Wheels are so nice to have in an airport and both bags don't have them.

Also, I need to figure out my AC unit. It confuses me to no end. I don't want my cat to melt, but I can't seem to get the auto setting right. It seems to want to be either ON or OFF. No. . .auto thing. And I don't need a high electricity bill waiting for me when I get home.

I'm in ellensburg just to let you know. Woo! I actually didn't bring Axl so I am updating from Genesis. Thought I would give it a try. I plan on updating like this while in Alaska. I probably won't be writing novels on LJ like this ha ha ha.

And I am very sleepy. When was the last time I was awake at this hour?????

Edit: Fighting with the touch's auto speller and LJ's tagging system is a bitch!

Just a quick update of random happy things after yesterday's ick.

Did laundry last night and finished before 11pm. It was amazing. I'm happy. And all my towels are clean. Sort of. I've discovered the towels I used in place of a drying rack is pretty stained. Oh well.

I look pretty hot today, not to sound prideful. Today is definitely a high self-esteem day except for my hair. My hair is having a bad day in the back and I tried many things to fix it with little success.

My cat locked herself in my bedroom not once, but twice today. Everytime, she freaks out and howels. I question her sanity.

My mother is giving me $50 towards my ipod Touch I want. Which I will either get this weekend or next. Depends on my finances as technically I get paid next Tuesday, but of course my rent is due tomorrow. So we will see. I went to the bank the other day and saw I was fine, but I think some deductions hadn't gone through yet. There was a time when I was happy to have $100 in the bank. Now I try to keep it well over that. What's nice is that the $50 was offered before she heard about my craptastic day yesterday. Anyone got any cool apps they would recommend? My one worry about getting a Touch is that a week later they will announce a Gen 3 with a built in camera. I would be so pissed. I need to figure out what to name it! I have two ideas.

My trip to Alaska is coming up fast. Oh em gee. I'm so nervous. Yes. Still slightly going "Big boat. Water. Aaaaaah." I'm guessing I am going to have a lot of free time while on the cruise part, especially since I am only wanting to do one land excursion thing. So, what to do?

This Sunday is an event called Bloomsday for Spokane. I had heard about it living in Tri-Cities, but didn't think it was a big deal. I mean. This is Spokane. Not Seattle or say New York. Well. Over 50,000 people show up to run, job, or walk 12k around the city. Um. Yeah. Kind of a big deal apparently. Guess where I live in reference to the race? Apparently I live on the starting line. The back of the starting line ( very back ), but the starting line none the less. I'll take pictures!

I've been distracted at work all day. ( I am working though. ) Why? My damn drawing. Started it last night ( I posted up a preview. ) and this morning before work I actually moved my lazy ass to get ready for work early so I could work on it.

Argh. It is a really simple comic ( And they aren't chibis! ) and one panel has ten people. Ten. Insanity. Ten faces squished into a 640x640 box that I will eventually squish into a 490x490 box. Roughly.

I have four sketched and one more almost done. Argh. Mr. Bushido. Why must your mask be so fugly? Everytime I draw it I "D:" at it because I feel like I can't draw it. It turns out ugly. But it is an ugly mask. That I still want. The only way I could make it look decent is to, uh, not draw it accurately? I dunno.

I HATE IT.

I think this comic will be hilarious to people. ( Even to people who don't know Gundam 00 Season 2! It will just be funnier to us. ) After sketching out three of the people, I started giggling at it. I can't work on it without giggling. Which is a good sign~ ♥

Ooooh the suspense.

HOMER IS YOUR ONLY SNEAK PEEK TO THE COMIC HA HA.

A lot of talk about our Alaska trip coming up yesterday. There is one big thing I want to do on this trip and I so hope it happens. My mom is worried about time and stuff and I am thinking if this is the ONLY thing I want to do on the trip, I am pretty sure I will have time for it.

I don't want to jinx myself and say what it is and then like it doesn't happen. Just try to think what REALLY COOL THING that can't be done anywhere else in the US. Pfft. I'm sure you can like Montana, BUT IT WOULDN'T BE AS COOL I BET.

There are only a limited number of people who can do it, but there are multiple times and three different excursions. Yay. They are all slightly different, but I won't be disappointed if I end up with my third choice.

Also did some shopping for new clothes. Mainly weather pants and a new jacket. I ended up with a jacket, pants, gloves, and a nice sweater thing. My dad got me the pants as they were his idea and he got me the jacket. I paid for it a little bit and the jacket was on sale ( because, lol. Summers here are 90s-100s. Why are we going to Alaska again? ), but dang. The jacket was still very expensive. It is a very nice jacket, warm, and I do like it. I was concerned about it being too small ( it was their last one. ) but I think that's because I am use to the jacket I have now. :3;; Which isn't very warm when it is below 40, and so I wear a sweater and two two jackets total.

I don't think I will need to layer so much with this jacket.

I'm excited for Alaska~~~

The ship supposedly has internet. But, even so I don't think I want to cart around my laptop. But you know what I want now? ( I'm so horrible. ) An iPod touch. I heard of them, I really never gave much attention to them so I had no idea what it was. All those commercials I've seen I overlooked and thought it was an iPhone. I didn't realize it is basically an iPhone just without the phone part. Which is super awesome. I love my phone, I love my service provider. I love some of the stuff you can do with an iPhone, but I never really wanted one because I don't want a new phone, AT&T, and whatever problems with updates for the phone that came up.

Even though I love my Haro, I think I know what I am saving up for next. I think it is very nifty and handy and I won't have to give up my phone. Mwa ha ha ha. But I will have to give up my Haro. Awww. Or at least, he will get less love. ( My little purple iPod is named Haro~ I name my electronics. )

All right I am done rambling now.

This weekend I am going to the Tri to see my parents. I am leaving tomorrow, not tonight and I am bringing Axl so I will be online some of the weekend and of course Sunday night. I am sure you won't really notice that I am gone.

We are going to talk about the trip to Alaska that is coming up. I am hoping while I am there I will go to the post office to mail something as, lol, international and customs stuff I need to do and the Spokane Post Office actually closed down not too long ago ( Yay economy! ). So I have no idea where I have to go to send mail here. Someday I will figure it out, but I am in the Tri and I know both post offices there.

I also hope to get my haircut this weekend Like Joshua! so woo! We will see if I have time. I just neeeeed a haircut already. I waited until after the con because ponytails make hiding hair under wigs much easier.

And maybe then people online will stop going "When did you become a blond?!" IT'S A WIG, GUYS.

I got tired of correcting people. Believe that I am blond~~~

Today there is a big web meeting from 12:30 to 4:00. Hopefully productive. I am feeling anxious about it. We are hoping to restructure the web department and all my work's website. We have three. Five if you count our sister station.

I have a therapy meeting on Monday before lunch. I think I will take in a picture of me as Joshua in to talk about it. Blargh. I know that makes no sense. I will ramble about it tonight in a locked entry.

What's wrong with me, guys? I'm so torn.

I think a big reason why it is a struggle for me is my mother. Why do I care so fucking much about what my mother thinks of me?