I meant to post a little update yesterday. Yesterday was a good day. For the first time in a long time I actually felt in touch with reality. Present. The several days before it I felt very numb, in a daze, and not really connected with reality. Not even connected with my body.
But yesterday was different. The stress at work felt like the kind of stress I am use to and have no problem working with. I didn't feel depressed. I could function!
I hope this is a sign that my new medication, which I started a week ago, is starting to help.