People tell me it's work and just life stressing me out.
Which is probably very accurate, but the frustrating thing is I feel like there is no end to this. This has just been a very hard year on me overall even though a lot of good stuff and positive stuff has happened once in a while.
If I can finally figure out my finances correctly, I am considering going back to therapy. A different therapist. One who not only helps with depression, but one that helps with career/work stuff. I found a couple with very reasonable rates. I am coming up to application number 100 and I still have no new job.
It is incredibly hard to remain motivated.
Being completely honest with everyone, I can barely function in life. I am doing my damn hardest to survive, but that isn't much is it? I remind myself every day that life won't always be like this, but once in a while...that isn't enough. It's hard to believe it some times.