I feel like I avoid doing the things I really want to do and that are important to me out of fear of failing. I love these characters so much and so it is scary to me to think about drawing something out only to not end up going anywhere in the future. It makes me feel vulnerable to try drawing this out.
I just keep telling myself that even if no one ends up liking the story, it will give me a chance to explore characters I love anyway. Also, it will really help me grow as an artist as I will have to be drawing a lot of things outside of my comfort zone. Seeing how people still really love my older Gundam 00C comics as much as the recent stuff helps me realize something. Even though I will most likely improve as time goes on leaving earlier chapters not as well drawn as later chapters, it doesn't matter. That won't automatically make the older stuff bad which is how I tend to view it.
And honestly I don't know why I think that. I've read a good chunk of different kinds of comics where the art changes. Fuck. I read Oh! My Goddess and the art changes dramatically over time.
I want to do this right. I don't want to start drawing and get a couple of chapters in only to realize I want to do something that requires a change in a previous chapter.
The panel I was at at SakuraCon talked about different ways to self-publish. It sounds like the best route for me to take of course is an online webcomic. But I want to do it a little differently. Instead of a page a week or two pages a week, I want to release it in chapters. I think it will help me focus and I think it will be better for the story.
I'll pimp it out anywhere I can.
Then to see if I can make a little money from it and because I think it will be super cool to have a physical comic book, I'll do that too. But not for the main story. There are a lot of little stories or scenes I really love, but aren't necessary for the main story. What I kind of see as extra bits that some people might be interested in. I don't want to weigh down the story with flash backs or side stories just because I love them. But if someone likes a character a lot, they might be interested in some of the extra bits. That sort of thing. I'd probably do these in color to make them special.
Right now I am working on outlining the story to see where I have holes and make sure everything flows. Like I said, I'd hate to get into say, chapter 5 and discover I want to do something and would need to have set it up back in chapter 3. From what I have done so far, I have added two new characters and worked out a main character's importance. I've also worked out an important change to a minor character.
Pretty soon I am going to try and do character designs. I have several in my head, but I would like to get something down especially since some of the designs need to change in my head. I hope during the time I am drawing character designs I will finish the outline and start scripting the story to prepare to draw. As I script I will work on thumbnails as I feel they go hand in hand.
I really love all these characters. And I want them to live outside of my head.